Saturday evening I’m going to a Texas Bloggers meet up event. I’m excited about the opportunity, but as time has passed, I have become pretty nervous about it as well!
It’s hard getting out there. It’s hard to put yourself out there.
So today, I want to share parts of me that I think make up who I am. I’m sharing this with the ladies in the bloggers meet-up and hopefully they won’t all run away when they see me Saturday. Even if they do, I’ll have an opportunity to paint and drink cheap wine. (Cause I bring cheap wine. That’s how I roll.)
(How I want you to picture me.)
(What I’m really like.)
What you should know about me.
Surface level stuff: I love college football. The month of October. Sappy romantic movies like You’ve Got Mail. I could watch Pride and Prejudice every single day of my life. I frequently choose classical/instrumental music over pop. I read a ton of books but often I don’t tell anyone about them because they are usually mindless romances or something equally indulgent. I have a daughter who is almost 2 1/2 and she is my little buddy. My husband and I will have been married 6 years next month. I love writing. I was a choir nerd in college and I miss it almost daily. I am a small town girl. I prefer quiet fields and starlight over the city, but I almost never say words like “y’all” and I don’t own any cowboy boots. I love bad puns and I try to find something funny in every situation.
Beliefs/Values: I went to Girls’ State in HS and I am passionate about what I believe — but I refuse to discuss politics. My faith is tied up in what I believe politically. I became a believer in Jesus Christ when I was 13 and was called into ministry the same week. I knew I’d spend the rest of my life telling people about my life change. I was a children’s minister for several years before I had my girl. I have been hurt badly by the church, and it was one of the most eye-opening things that could have ever happened to me. I am in no way ashamed of my faith, but I am very careful how I choose my words. I want people to be drawn to Jesus as healer and too many people use Him as a weapon. I am a Christian, a mommy, and a blogger, but I wouldn’t consider myself a “Christian mommy blogger.”
A little deeper: I care deeply about people — often a little too much. I have a compulsive need to be liked. Most people say I’m a really nice person. Don’t ask me to lie. I won’t do it. I am often a little too forthcoming and I feel like it sometimes makes certain members of my family uncomfortable, but I refuse to wear masks or hide who I am in order to save face. I believe that we all are made up of a million different things that make us unique — and trying to hide some in order to seem like everyone else is detrimental to who we were made to be.
I’m learning that in my life, I can’t compromise who I am. I can’t pretend to be someone I’m not in order to gain a friend, because that doesn’t build a relationship that lasts. Instead, I should be who I am and get to know people who accepts every part of me.
I’m learning to take myself a little less seriously. Being a perfectionist, I tend to get mad when I am not 100% all the time. I’m learning to let that go. Even at 90%, I’m still fabulous. 😉
I think I am funny, caring, approachable, down-to-earth, a nerd, easily anxious, a romantic realist, and a good friend.
What else is a good descriptor of me? Help these new ladies see I’m not a total weirdo. If you know me either in real life or online, tell me what you see about me. I’m interested in what other people think.
(Unless you hate me. Then that would be terrible.)