Deep Thoughts

The waiting room of labor

June 14, 2013

It’s been a long couple of weeks lately. I’m in the waiting room of labor and I’m experiencing the following emotions: Wanting labor to start already. Overwhelming fear that labor is about to start and I’m not ready. Discomfort Great moments where I feel like I’m not almost 38 weeks pregnant Hormonal swings (irrational anger irritation, [...]

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Feeling discouraged.

May 9, 2013

I hesitate to write a blog post like this. I even shudder at the idea of pressing “publish” and getting my words out there. I hesitate for several reasons — because I don’t want to seem ungrateful or complaining. I don’t want to disappoint my family members who read this. I don’t want to trigger [...]

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It could have been fatal.

April 22, 2013

I’ll do my 30 week pregnancy update tomorrow, okay? Thanks. I want to write about something else. Today I decided to run to Kohl’s to spend my $40 Kohl’s Cash before it expired Wednesday, so I gathered Bluebelle and my grandma (who wanted to go) up in my car and took off to “town.” The [...]

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Limitations

April 16, 2013

If there’s anything I really hate, it’s being limited. I don’t like being told I have to pick something — a major, a career, a path. I like having my options open. I like feeling like I can do anything. In pregnancy, you are immediately limited. Limited on what you can eat, do, what medicines [...]

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Dwelling. When I should have been sleeping.

March 22, 2013

I find myself awake at 4 am, hips screaming as I waddle to the bathroom to empty my bladder. I’ve fought the mental battle and lost, choosing immediate relief over long term sleep, because I know that my body will refuse to return to it’s original state. Such is the madness of this stage, perpetual [...]

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Growing up and standing up

March 21, 2013

I am wrapping up my last week in Texas. It’s considerably more mournful than I anticipated. I feel as though I am leaving a world behind. I am leaving friends, family, and opportunities behind. More importantly, I know that life will go on — so I feel as though I am being the one left [...]

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Coming Back Home

March 13, 2013

When I was a teenager, I swore I would never return home. I turned 18, graduated high school, and packed up and moved to a small school in Texas where I didn’t know a soul. I spent 4 of the most amazing years there and made friends I’ll cherish forever. I met my husband, got married, [...]

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Participating in Lent.

February 13, 2013

Don’t forget to enter the giveaway for a $15 Gift Certificate to Just Between Friends! I am not Catholic. Just a disclaimer. I am, however, participating in Lent this year. I think that often many Protestant churches miss a great opportunity in order to prepare ourselves for spiritual significance. When I was a child, [...]

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Chasing after peace

February 5, 2013

Sometimes I have to shut down my social media and close my eyes to escape it all. There’s so much drama. Pictures and videos of conspiracy theories and rants against the government, angry diatribes of slighted moments and the constant fear of losing something we never really had in the first place. It makes me [...]

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I have been called to serve my family. I mean, really.

January 30, 2013

(Photo courtesy of miss pupik on flickr) Do you ever feel under-appreciated? I’ll admit I do. I often feel like I run the same race every day. Maybe we all feel that way? I read recently that being a parent feels like you’ll never get an A+ again, and often I feel that way. I wash [...]