Taking Care of Mama

Feeling discouraged.

May 9, 2013

I hesitate to write a blog post like this. I even shudder at the idea of pressing “publish” and getting my words out there. I hesitate for several reasons — because I don’t want to seem ungrateful or complaining. I don’t want to disappoint my family members who read this. I don’t want to trigger [...]

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Limitations

April 16, 2013

If there’s anything I really hate, it’s being limited. I don’t like being told I have to pick something — a major, a career, a path. I like having my options open. I like feeling like I can do anything. In pregnancy, you are immediately limited. Limited on what you can eat, do, what medicines [...]

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Enough, already.

April 11, 2013

Just preparing you now, I’m sharing pretty raw emotions. I’m trying to work them out. I’m having a hard time remembering that God is more than enough when the truth is, I’ve had enough. I am almost 29 weeks pregnant. That means in plus or minus 11 weeks, a baby will be here. My baby. [...]

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Turning 29.

March 28, 2013

I turn 29 tomorrow. Well, today. I’m actually writing this before the clock strikes midnight, so by the time this is posted and written, it will be March 28. I am beginning my last year of my twenties. Or the first year of a long streak of 29. I haven’t decided yet. Birthdays are always [...]

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Dwelling. When I should have been sleeping.

March 22, 2013

I find myself awake at 4 am, hips screaming as I waddle to the bathroom to empty my bladder. I’ve fought the mental battle and lost, choosing immediate relief over long term sleep, because I know that my body will refuse to return to it’s original state. Such is the madness of this stage, perpetual [...]

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Is this my last pregnancy?

March 14, 2013

Since I was a little girl, I always imagined having three children. I think it came down to the fact that one of my childhood best friends was the youngest of three and I always loved how full his house was. Two never seemed like enough, and four seemed like too many. When I had [...]

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I am worthy of my job.

January 3, 2013

Since I was a little girl, I had a plan for my future. It looked like this: graduate high school, go to college, have a career, get married, and become a stay at home mom when the time came. It happened exactly as I had planned. I graduated in the top 10 percent of my [...]

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Healing My Birth Story

December 14, 2012

Have you ever read my baby story about Bluebelle? Basically, my baby story was everything I didn’t expect to have with my first labor. Initially, I was just happy to have a healthy baby and my feelings toward that has never changed. I am beyond thankful that B was safe and healthy. However, after the [...]

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For the Christmas Challenged.

December 1, 2012

My friends will tell you I’m kind of a freak. They would tell you I’m an overachiever, that I rarely relax in social settings because I’m too focused on a perfect meal or perfect food. They would tell you that I clean… compulsively. They also wouldn’t recognize my home right now if they walked in [...]

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Weight Issues and Pregnancy

November 30, 2012

I’m going to be really real, y’all. I’ve battled with my weight my whole life. I am not naturally slim. I have curves. Unfortunately, I didn’t recognize my weight as healthy when I was in the good times, and I miss that now. Let me tell you a little about me and weight: *I rarely [...]